A lot has gone on in a very short amount of time. It would be startling if I didn't feel so numb over it all.
Where to begin...
I had a scare recently involving my eyesight. I woke up with pains in the back of my eye, which has been a monthly occurrence for a while now. The only problem was that it wasn't my affected eye that was throbbing. It was my healthy one. I knew that if I went to the optometrist, nothing would come of it. He would tell me I need to see a specialist and charge me $90 for the exam. If I saw my family doctor, she would tell me I need to see the ophthalmologist. If I went to the ophthalmologist, they would refer me to a neurologist. The neurologists have a 3 month wait and I have an appointment booked with one in June. So needless to say, I just got all worked up, cried my eyes out, and hoped I wouldn't start to lose my sight in my other eye. Bryan was very nonchalant about the whole situation, which was just as frustrating. Anyway, the pain went away within a couple of days but left me feeling pretty anxious. The DI department at the hospital continues to ignore my phone calls and messages, which is kind of a joke. So no MRI for me. It would have been nice to see if my brain was starting to fill with holes, but I don't get that novelty I guess.
Still can't get in to see my OB. I had to reschedule my appointment and they put me on a cancellation list 5 weeks ago and never called me back. I just got a regular pap done by my doctor 2 weeks ago and big surprise, no one knows where the results are.
Everything is just a huge frustrating mess. I'm writing finals right now, still working nights which keeps me exhausted all the time, trying to come up with money to support myself for 5 months of unemployment, getting anxious for my last semester in May, and trying to hold on to whatever sanity I have left.
Well that'll be all for now. I was going to end this on a positive note but now I've worked myself up and really don't feel like writing anything else...
