I'm trying to cut back on the sugar in my diet due to my last visit to the dentist, which warranted a lecture from my dentist and some concerned advice from the tech about my teeth and the state that they're in. I have had 13 cavities filled in the past year. In my defense, I had managed to avoid that chair for the previous 6 years, which I'm sure didn't help. Regardless, after my last 2 were filled, the dentist told me the direct cause of the cavities was sugar. Now, I have always been a big sugar fan but I honestly didn't think that I ate enough to literally rot the teeth out of my head. She told me to cut back on it, plain and simple. I talked with the assistant, who informed me that some people are just more susceptible to tooth decay than others, and that I need to step up my flossing if I want to stay ahead of it.
Needless to say, I'm hating this sugar crisis. It has always been a slight addiction of mine. I drink it in my coffee, I snack on it, I bake with it, I cook with it, and there is sugar in almost everything!! Everything good anyway... bleh.
Oh well, I don't have much of a choice if I want to avoid having dentures before I'm 30.
TTC Update: I'm 13 DPO (since I'm writing this at 5:14am...) and so far have had nothing but BFN's and major cramping, with a couple throbbing headaches to round things out. AF should grace me with her presence today. Oh well, I'm having a stress free Wednesday just to spite it all!! I'm going to make homemade chicken soup, homemade vanilla and lavender scented soap, do a little reading, maybe make some jewelry, play with my dogs, and go out on a date with the love of my life! Sounds pretty darn perfect to me :)
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
10 10 10
Well, it is the 10th day of April. I am 10 DPO and this is our 10th month of trying. I thought the stars may have been aligning for us today, so I tested. BFN.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
9 DPO on the 9th
Today I'm 9 DPO on my final TTC cycle until July. I have had some mixed emotions this cycle (as seen in a recent YouTube VLOG...) but my hopes are up so high right now, it scares me. Bryan's are too. I took a HPT on 7 DPO and 8 DPO, then I was so crushed I didn't even bother with today. On top of this, the idea of leaving Bryan again for 3 months makes my stomach turn. We do grow from them and it allows me focus 100% on my work, but I hate it. 3 months is way too long to be without the person you love, AND your amazing dogs and cuddly kitties :(
I am looking forward to seeing my parents. With everything my dad has been through, it will be nice to spend a week with them before school starts (and any following weekends that I can spare the time). Mostly I'm looking forward to being finished school!! Forever!! We have been looking at houses and discussing future plans a lot more frequently lately, so I guess this 3 month break is just a stepping stone before the ball really gets rolling! Kind of exciting when I put it that way... :D
I am looking forward to seeing my parents. With everything my dad has been through, it will be nice to spend a week with them before school starts (and any following weekends that I can spare the time). Mostly I'm looking forward to being finished school!! Forever!! We have been looking at houses and discussing future plans a lot more frequently lately, so I guess this 3 month break is just a stepping stone before the ball really gets rolling! Kind of exciting when I put it that way... :D
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Positive Vibes
Alright, this is going to be a positive post!
After 3 days of + OPKs my temp finally shifted. FF says that if we conceive this cycle, the due date would be December 23rd (my birthday!!!). That would be the best birthday present imaginable.
I've found another relatively new hobby, slightly related to an old one. It is crocheting with wire. I found some really neat ideas online and I think I could really get in to it. I'm going to get started on it ASAP and post some pictures as I complete my projects.
My 3 month trip back to AB begins in 18 days, which is kind of bittersweet. I'm excited to see my family, friends, schoolmates, and finish my course. On the other hand, it's 3 months of unemployment and being away from Bryan and our furr babies. I'm sure it will fly by and I'm just going to enjoy the time I have with family. Positive thoughts!
After 3 days of + OPKs my temp finally shifted. FF says that if we conceive this cycle, the due date would be December 23rd (my birthday!!!). That would be the best birthday present imaginable.
I've found another relatively new hobby, slightly related to an old one. It is crocheting with wire. I found some really neat ideas online and I think I could really get in to it. I'm going to get started on it ASAP and post some pictures as I complete my projects.
My 3 month trip back to AB begins in 18 days, which is kind of bittersweet. I'm excited to see my family, friends, schoolmates, and finish my course. On the other hand, it's 3 months of unemployment and being away from Bryan and our furr babies. I'm sure it will fly by and I'm just going to enjoy the time I have with family. Positive thoughts!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Changes
A lot has gone on in a very short amount of time. It would be startling if I didn't feel so numb over it all.
Where to begin...
I had a scare recently involving my eyesight. I woke up with pains in the back of my eye, which has been a monthly occurrence for a while now. The only problem was that it wasn't my affected eye that was throbbing. It was my healthy one. I knew that if I went to the optometrist, nothing would come of it. He would tell me I need to see a specialist and charge me $90 for the exam. If I saw my family doctor, she would tell me I need to see the ophthalmologist. If I went to the ophthalmologist, they would refer me to a neurologist. The neurologists have a 3 month wait and I have an appointment booked with one in June. So needless to say, I just got all worked up, cried my eyes out, and hoped I wouldn't start to lose my sight in my other eye. Bryan was very nonchalant about the whole situation, which was just as frustrating. Anyway, the pain went away within a couple of days but left me feeling pretty anxious. The DI department at the hospital continues to ignore my phone calls and messages, which is kind of a joke. So no MRI for me. It would have been nice to see if my brain was starting to fill with holes, but I don't get that novelty I guess.
Still can't get in to see my OB. I had to reschedule my appointment and they put me on a cancellation list 5 weeks ago and never called me back. I just got a regular pap done by my doctor 2 weeks ago and big surprise, no one knows where the results are.
Everything is just a huge frustrating mess. I'm writing finals right now, still working nights which keeps me exhausted all the time, trying to come up with money to support myself for 5 months of unemployment, getting anxious for my last semester in May, and trying to hold on to whatever sanity I have left.
Well that'll be all for now. I was going to end this on a positive note but now I've worked myself up and really don't feel like writing anything else...
Where to begin...
I had a scare recently involving my eyesight. I woke up with pains in the back of my eye, which has been a monthly occurrence for a while now. The only problem was that it wasn't my affected eye that was throbbing. It was my healthy one. I knew that if I went to the optometrist, nothing would come of it. He would tell me I need to see a specialist and charge me $90 for the exam. If I saw my family doctor, she would tell me I need to see the ophthalmologist. If I went to the ophthalmologist, they would refer me to a neurologist. The neurologists have a 3 month wait and I have an appointment booked with one in June. So needless to say, I just got all worked up, cried my eyes out, and hoped I wouldn't start to lose my sight in my other eye. Bryan was very nonchalant about the whole situation, which was just as frustrating. Anyway, the pain went away within a couple of days but left me feeling pretty anxious. The DI department at the hospital continues to ignore my phone calls and messages, which is kind of a joke. So no MRI for me. It would have been nice to see if my brain was starting to fill with holes, but I don't get that novelty I guess.
Still can't get in to see my OB. I had to reschedule my appointment and they put me on a cancellation list 5 weeks ago and never called me back. I just got a regular pap done by my doctor 2 weeks ago and big surprise, no one knows where the results are.
Everything is just a huge frustrating mess. I'm writing finals right now, still working nights which keeps me exhausted all the time, trying to come up with money to support myself for 5 months of unemployment, getting anxious for my last semester in May, and trying to hold on to whatever sanity I have left.
Well that'll be all for now. I was going to end this on a positive note but now I've worked myself up and really don't feel like writing anything else...
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Exploring some ideas
I keep forgetting how great yoga makes me feel. I'm going to have to start using it as a motivator to get out of bed and do something during the day. My routines now consist of working, sleeping in, getting up with the dogs, watching tv in bed (the bedroom is the only warm room in our house), making something to eat, cuddling with Byran before work, get ready for work, go to work. My days off are the exact same, except no sleeping in. It's kind of pitiful. I don't even have a desire to eat these days, which is very unlike me.
Today was different. I decided that I was going to clean up the house a bit and ended up dragging out the yoga mat. I did the beginner/intermediate work-out and felt amazing afterward. I had so much energy! I don't know why today was different, I usually try to get at least one yoga session in per week. I have really been in a funk lately though, so maybe it was enough to pull me out for a while. I need to start doing some serious work on my core. My back pain is to the point where it is chronic, and I fear that if I don't do something about it soon it will only get worse. Yoga is the perfect solution, so I'm going to do 3 sessions a week and work up to doing it every day (hopefully).
I have also been trying to think of ideas for me Etsy shop. I have nothing in it right now. I was thinking about selling hand-designed baby clothes, but I'll need to do some serious planning if that is what I end up doing. I have also researched how to make homemade soap. I bought some of the supplies online, but the process is a little scary! You have to use lye, which is toxic and corrosive. You have to heat and mix everything together, using thermometers and gloves, then pour everything in to a mold and let it sit for 3 weeks! I never knew it would be so freaking difficult! It seems like one of those procedures that you get the hang of and can just do it without even thinking after your first few times. We'll see how that goes. Bryan doesn't have much faith, but I think as long as I'm gloved and the animals are out of harms way things will be fine.
Today was different. I decided that I was going to clean up the house a bit and ended up dragging out the yoga mat. I did the beginner/intermediate work-out and felt amazing afterward. I had so much energy! I don't know why today was different, I usually try to get at least one yoga session in per week. I have really been in a funk lately though, so maybe it was enough to pull me out for a while. I need to start doing some serious work on my core. My back pain is to the point where it is chronic, and I fear that if I don't do something about it soon it will only get worse. Yoga is the perfect solution, so I'm going to do 3 sessions a week and work up to doing it every day (hopefully).
I have also been trying to think of ideas for me Etsy shop. I have nothing in it right now. I was thinking about selling hand-designed baby clothes, but I'll need to do some serious planning if that is what I end up doing. I have also researched how to make homemade soap. I bought some of the supplies online, but the process is a little scary! You have to use lye, which is toxic and corrosive. You have to heat and mix everything together, using thermometers and gloves, then pour everything in to a mold and let it sit for 3 weeks! I never knew it would be so freaking difficult! It seems like one of those procedures that you get the hang of and can just do it without even thinking after your first few times. We'll see how that goes. Bryan doesn't have much faith, but I think as long as I'm gloved and the animals are out of harms way things will be fine.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
False alarm...
Well, the infamous false positive blue dye pregnancy tests have claimed another victim. I tested 3 more times the same day as I got the positive, but all of them turned out negative. Tested again yesterday morning and got the same result. Then I spent the better part of my Valentine's Day afternoon in bed, crying and feeling sorry for myself. The events of today confirm the negative. that's what I get for being optimistic for once.
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